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Aug. 20th, 2006 @ 11:48 pm Hey, been ten weeks, time for another update.
Things are looking up for me. Well, not even that. Things are up for me. I have a good life. I'm getting good grades. I'm part of an greek house filled with great people.
I have good prospects for employment this winter, a good resume, a great position in a campus improv group.
I have Nina, and that's almost worth all of it right there.

Yet it's hard to break out of the old habits. I feel like there's a baseline of anxiety reverberating in the background every time I leave the house. It's hard for me to embrace all the good in my life, even when it's overwhelming.

I can't rid myself of the nagging doubt.
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Jun. 17th, 2006 @ 02:24 am (no subject)
Fun evening, though the remainder of the night feels hollow now that I'm sitting here with nothing to do but spend time with my own nagging thoughts. I feel rushed, as if there's not enough time to savor the small joys of my hometown existence before I head back to College. I find myself preemptively missing the people I'll have to leave behind. I won't see (most of) them again until December.

Bummed out. I think I'll read some escapist fantasy literature and go to sleep, so as to wake up tomorrow ready to spend more time with the friends I get to see two or three times a year.
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Jan. 24th, 2006 @ 06:47 am (no subject)
There. I posted. Now someone who has something interesting to say should take a turn.
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Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 07:43 pm Defeatism
What do you have against me being happy?
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 01:23 am La la la
La la la, I don't care, la la la, I can't hear you.
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Dec. 13th, 2005 @ 02:10 am Happy Family Planning Birth Control
I'm sorry, but it's really starting to get to me.
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Dec. 3rd, 2005 @ 12:58 am (no subject)
This entry is to remind me to put something here when I finish with my exam in about twelve hours.
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Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 12:33 am And melted butter...
Please someone. Anyone at all! My situation is dire, and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold out!
Waffles! I need delicious toasty waffles with lots of warm maple syrup!
Please! Hurry!
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Nov. 24th, 2005 @ 02:18 pm (no subject)
My feature film kicks ass, and I will see it made.

When I turn 20, the first thing I will do is weep for my lost childhood

Fishballoon Enterprises is doing a Christmas Special.

When I turn 21, the first thing I will do is become an alcoholic.

Got long-distance kudos from some film folks who saw my movie at Cornell

When I turn 22, the first thing I will do is write that book that I've been meaning to make money off of.

I'm VP and production director for the Jackolantern humor magazine.

When I turn 23, I will proceed to succeed.
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Nov. 21st, 2005 @ 08:39 pm Dinner
Wanted to get the gang together for dinner before break, but everyone decided to be ridiculous, so goodbye dinner = microwave burrito. So pissed off.
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